Welcome to New Life Foundation
Vernon Howard Founder
“It is wise to seek immortality for time defeats all other ambitions.”
“What you want also wants you. If you seek the celestial, the celestial also seeks you. There are no unanswered requests in the universe. If we do not like what we are receiving, we can learn to ask for something different.”
HOW TO BE HAPPY
All loss is simply marvelous! You have nothing to do in your spiritual life but to lose. Forget trying to get anything! Concentrate all together intensely on losing something. This is what it is all about.
In the first place you don’t know what to get. You do not know what to get. It is not in your knowledge. The man out in the desert does not know what it means to find gold in the mountains. What is the point of thinking about gold when he isn’t in the right place to think about gold? What he has to do is lose his desert location. Therefore, put it down well that your objective every day, every minute is to start losing. Losing what? Everything. Now that is not too much to take. Come on, start taking it.
The answer is that the mind must surrender to the spirit. Your mind must give up to the spirit. Now, you don’t know what the spirit is, so say, “I am going to start where I am in surrendering my mind to the spirit.”
So you have to exercise all day long in practicing self-loss. See how long you can go during the day in simply practical thought and spiritual self-watching. Now, that means you must not fall asleep. Both of those are good which leads to self-loss. If you fall asleep, you go into self-thought, self-wailing.
The way you wake up as fast as you can — don’t love the mental movies, or the self-pity. Simply understand that the loss you suffer of them is gain for who you really are. What we’re talking about in keeping this exercise going for as long as you can is studying and putting first the invisible world, not the visible world.
The whole world is both a visible and an invisible world. Even you don’t see the invisible world inside of you. It is the invisible that produced the visible. No nation ever went to war without discussion around a table first. It is the cause of the visible world.
Since that is true, are you going to ever try to change the visible world again? Therefore, pay attention to the cause. Stay in this invisible world every day as long as you can. Then you won’t try to change anything or anyone. Instead, you will want to work from the invisible world and lose.
The invisible world also includes a false world that wants to torment you. [Say] “Ah, I want to get rid of misery.”
How to be happy: lose so much that you at last understand that loss must be your primary power, aim and virtue in life. Then you will know what you’re doing because you will know that the doing of that is correct and will lead to high places.
ABANDON ALL HOPE
You can never be happy with what you have now. Do you want to know who you really are? How to get back home? You have to abandon all hope. You can’t believe in any other human being on earth, in human personality. You have to give up hope in finding your answer as you presently are. There is no one there. It is all only what thought has created — a delusion.
You have to come to the conclusion: “I’m still lost. I’m an awfully unpleasant human being. I’m worried.”
You have nothing but self-sickness. Please abandon all hope. You don’t have to believe in yourself anymore. The only way you will be happy is when you’re back home. Start by knowing you’re not home and Truth will do the rest for you.
THE ONLY ENCOURAGEMENT YOU NEED
There are three kinds of encouragement, as classified here:
1. False encouragement: Anything that encourages you to use this world for self-fulfillment. It won’t
2. Real encouragement: Based on facts that help us perform tasks well.
3. Supreme encouragement: Spiritual. You are given facts, right instructions. You need encouragement,
real guidance. You finally won’t need any encouragement at all.
God provided a counter attack to dark forces. Finally, the time will come when you don’t need any encouragement at all. You can have permanent confidence in yourself when you’re real.
Problem — you think too small. If you don’t get tired of your miserable little world, you won’t break out.
Superlative — there’s none to describe what you are on the way to discovering — the greatest of superlatives — TRUTH.
Instruction — Realize the only way to stay encouraged is to stay with only things that are truthful.
HOW TO BE UNAFRAID
All fear is caused because you believe you have a separate personality. We will show you how to be unafraid by disappearing so there’s no one there to be afraid, hateful.
If you are afraid of anything, you had better look at your fear instead of what’s out there. The next time fear tries to take you over, you watch very carefully and the watching itself puts an end to it. Where fear arises, don’t argue with it. Simply watch it with detached observation. Darkness must yield to light.
LET HIM DO THE TALKING
If you do this, your nature will change. Again, you’re not going to understand what I’m about to tell you. Here is the exercise for the rest of your life. You are never ever again in your entire life going to dominate a conversation.
Every time you ever talk to another human being, you are to let him do the talking. Be passive! This is for the rest of your life!
You are to sit back and listen without interruption. No more! You want to learn the difference between rocks and rubies. Note everything about the conversation; for example, notice how nervous you get and you want to fill up the silence.
Next rule: When you do occasionally talk, please notice your favorite topic of conversation.
There is nothing worse than you being involved with you. If you get rid of this false personality, your pain will go away.
DO WHAT YOU DON’T WANT TO DO
To increase your speed toward self-health, towards spiritual success, always do exactly what you don't want to do. You don't want to carry that exercise over to the next day that you were given the day before. You don't want to shake your head in a certain setting where you're getting ego-gratification out of staying asleep. You don't want to go against yourself. You don't want to paddle upstream. You want to stay asleep in the canoe.
NO! Do what you don't want to do. Go against the powers of darkness that want to keep you lazy, that want to keep you dreaming, thinking you are awake. Always give yourself a shock by deliberately doing that exercise one hour longer. Or by going into the supermarket and your aim is going to be aware of yourself turning the corner and going down the aisle and watching other people. Don't be sleepwalking through that supermarket.
Summary: Do exactly what you don't want to do and that will lead you to a new self.
RISE ABOVE YOURSELF
You must abandon your love for good and bad experiences and instead have experiences that make you feel alive. There really does exist a way of life with a true feeling of life. There's one revelation after another in which you know you can rise above yourself.
For example, fearing people. Why should you ever be afraid of any human being? There’s no need. He screams like a maniac. He's weak and he's a coward, and you attribute strength to him. Any human being who likes to hurt other people is a lost soul.
Isn’t it about time you see through the enemy called suffering? Here’s the basis of suffering. You look out at the world and try to get something from it you think you need. There is only junk out there. You look out at a world from pain-filled eyes.
A state of loneliness without knowing what to do about it is the state of all human beings who have not found God. The only thing you've got is you. You’re supposed to have God in your life.
Everything you do is an attempt to escape your pain — the awful haunting. You are running away from the fear of isolation.
You can learn how to see the entire world through the eyes of understanding, not through the eyes of frantic desire. See that there is no way you can succeed because there’s nothing to get. Think of what you’ve counted on to save yourself from your loneliness. Run out of hope. Come to the realization that the world is empty — no value to you. And realize that you are empty. No value. No hope. Know that there’s nothing good that you presently see. You'll become spiritually sane! The mind will collapse of its own delusions.
You have to realize that you have to run out of yourself. “If I give myself up, that’s it. There’s nothing more to do.” That’s what it means to be saved. That’s what it means to rise above this world. That’s what it means to see this world as it is — crying.
Your biggest amazement will be how you clung to yourself. You must put your attention on your inner nature. Stand at the window. Your spirit will brighten. You’ve transcended!
STICK WITH IT
The first man was “The man who knows what he wants.” He had everything he wanted. Millions of people followed what they read in his story, I KNOW WHAT I WANT.
The second man, who knew him from high school, never knew what he wanted. He tried things but he couldn’t persist in them. He stayed scared (that is great). He couldn’t convince himself he wanted that business career. “There’s something wrong.” He stayed with that many years.
Stick with the wavering, the self-doubt. What happens is the delusions begin to fade; the house starts to crumble altogether. Stick with it over the years. Delusion is persistent. It is getting carried away in the flood.
Let God open your eyes and you will know who you are and you will know who you will be forevermore.
I better just say a few words about that horrible monster, vanity. Let me tell you, first of all, that when you are vain you don’t know you are. Vanity is always unseen, unconscious, hidden inside yourself. And even if someone says you’re vain, you won’t see it.
You might resent them telling that you’re vain and why did you resent it? Because you know it’s true, but there’s a difference. This is a very fine line I’m going to draw here.
There is such a thing as conscious knowing, which is not a part of your mind but a part of the Spirit of Reality. There’s also a sensing which is part of the intellect but not beyond it. This is why, when you’re accused of something bad and you did do something bad, you get angry because you know it’s true. But you don’t want to admit that it’s true that you did something that you should not have done.
So you do have inside-sensing. That’s a good word which means repressed knowledge of your actual lost condition. And that you do live in a world of shadows and you must bring that up to consciousness. And you bring it up to consciousness by taking your lessons home and studying them. You learn the lesson by knowing, through personal observation, that you can’t do the lesson you know. You know the lesson but you can’t do it. You read the book on how to drive an automobile but if you got in an automobile and tried to drive you’d get in a wreck.
That’s what happens to you. You take the intellect for the spirit and the hideous force of vanity is in back of that. And vanity serves as a substitute for Reality.
You know very well that you can’t drive your car through life properly without getting into accidents, wrecks inside. You know it. However “that’s a shameful thing to admit to anyone that I don’t know what I’m doing with my life.” So you put up a picture of yourself driving the car and call it real. It’s an imagination that you can drive the car. It’s an imagination and vanity that you’re sensible, that you’re spiritual, that you know all about inner subjects and you’re a good knowledgeable person, in charge of yourself. You’ve substituted dangerous vanity for safe Reality. When are you going to stop?
I tell you, ooh, no question about it, it’s a rough business to come to a place of truth like this is and have your vanity knocked down. To tell you, to make you see, that what you’re claiming for yourself — the virtues, the strength, the wisdom, the knowledge — is non-existent.
To generalize it a little bit, you’re compelled frantically and nervously to tell yourself that your life and way of life is OK. You put the label on it, then no need to change right? “I don’t need anybody to tell me anything. I know it. I’ve got it.”
Those highways in the physical world are filled with crashing cars and hurt human beings, but that’s nothing compared to the crashes and smashes and the injuries and the fatalities that go on inside human beings who say, “I know how to drive my life.” And that’s their vanity talking. Vanity doesn’t know how to drive through life. If you knew how to drive through life, you could go out of here and never ever have another problem, another grief, another worry.
You’re simply saying that your life is all right but inside it isn’t. Will you please know that! Come on. Never mind the blows. Be a true spiritual warrior. A lot of parts of you don’t want to believe there is pure truth here. I’m telling you, decide for yourself with the one little part that knows that everything here is healthy and good for you.
What you have to do is to know you’re in the shadow world and to stop enjoying it. It’s a false enjoyment. The shadow world wears you out and makes you tired and unhealthy and scared. Let us show you how to turn around and go into the light.
DON’T FEED THE ANIMALS
If there’s an attack, I’m simply going to know that the attack was there and I am not going to feed it with emotional energy, because I know that it will immediately turn negative and sour and evil and harmful. I’m going to keep my feelings and my thoughts out of it and rely on God to give me clear perception of what is happening at the moment it is happening.
Put special emphasis on the fact that the enemy, the attacker, the foe of your soul has no force, no life, no aggression, no power to hurt except as your unawareness of spiritual principles allows it. Don’t feed the animals — the weasels and the hawks and the alligators, etc., with your mind and emotions. Instead, understand what is going on.
DETECT THE LIE
Experiment with this in order to see through the lie, the deception, that suffering is all there is.
What you have to do: You’re to know altogether that the way you’re now living and trying to find peace of mind, security and safety, that you have never found it and never will this way. Your consciousness of the fact that you have only a trembling self is to be followed by remembering that you are lied to many times a day by part of this insecure nature, false mind. In the great final lie it says, “If you leave me you will be in pain. Something bad will happen to you.” “That’s what I have now! You’re threatening me with something I already have.” Detect the lie and dare to accept what Truth tells you about your condition, instead of what the dark forces tell you. Know the urgency of this, the necessity of it.
God has given you, inside of you, one bit of intelligence — the chooser — which can agree to follow the instructions from heavenly headquarters to get up and go out and face every terror in the haunted house. You must do it. You will get unafraid.
Every human being who has ever found his true nature, who has ever become united with God, who has ever been saved, who has exchanged his sick nature for a healthy nature, became aware and realized the futility of sitting in the closet and putting oneself to sleep every few hours and blanking out again. He heard that God has provided a plan whereby he can get outside of himself. Outside of the haunted house.
Key words: Dare to defy darkness. Dare to listen to the voice of light. There is freedom from the closet, but you have to do what you have to do in order to attain it. Be willing to have your whole egotistical self collapse completely so God can tell you the right direction. What you will know is that there is eternal life. You will be out of time completely. You will be living with who you really are.
HOW TO GAIN CONTROL OVER YOUR LIFE
Don’t you dare ever do anything about your miserable wretched life.
IMPORTANT: The one way that you or anyone will ever find control over your life is to have no control whatever. Any attempt for you to try to figure out what’s best for you will fail. Any attempt to feel good will fail, including watching TV, associating with people who make you feel good. Feeling good is really the absence of getting excitement over everything that is you.
All this is schoolwork you have to go to work on. You have tests every day.
Make a conscious wish, decision to let Truth tell you how to take the next step, where to go, what to say. This means acknowledging that you don’t know what to do. You don’t have control over yourself, so you say, “I will consciously decide to choose God and Truth.” That is already a declaration that you don’t know what to do or where to go.
The spiritual condition can change the human condition. It increases the ability to know the only thing that can help you take the next step up is something that is not you. Behind the words is the spiritual power.
Now you make a deliberate conscious decision to allow God to rule your life. Who, what is ruling your life now? Ghastly! You have been taking and obeying orders from the dark, downhill course. What is ruling your life is something simply awful. Now that you see how bad it is, so awful, you made another mistake with a question, “But how can I change it?”
Temptation comes and you start to interfere with what God is trying to do for you. The way to trust God is to no longer trust yourself. Yielding to God is to no longer trust yourself anymore. To really be on the side of God is the only peace. Dedicate yourself to get yourself out of the way and you’ll know what it means to live from the Spirit of Truth.
THE SUPERMARKET EXERCISE
Regardless of whom you talk to from now on, you’re going to stay apart from their life. You will not enter into their life; you’ll stay in your own life. You won’t be in the shadow world that they live in and which is reaching out to pull you into it.
Yes, all lost people want to pull you into their lost desert but now you’re an alert and awake spiritual student. And you go down to the supermarket and you meet someone. You’re both so unaware that your carts bump. But now you look up at that other person and first there’s the sad condition known as automatic nervousness and jitteriness when the eye contact comes. Right? Nod your heads yes. Why? There’s a reason for looking and seeing and understanding, but there’s no reason for you to immediately go into their world, which means the same thing as losing your world.
The basis of you getting wrongly involved with anyone is the fact that you want something from him or her. That’s it. If you didn’t want anything, you’d be quite different. But being a perpetually insecure nervous man or woman you want to try to give your burdens to them.
You want to get rid of something, so you get involved in the shadowy world. Now there’s no other way you can behave as long as you’re the way you are. They can entice you because you’ve surrendered to them in an attempt to give them your troubles. Oh, didn’t you tell them about that near-collision you had?
You cannot stay as you are, as the world is. You have to stop. What you have to do next is, right when that urge starts to boil and bubble inside you when you meet that person, you will notice the first little urge you have to pour your griefs out into the whole world.
I want to tell you something strange and fascinating. It is wrong, hurtful for you to continue to chatter to anyone and tell them your griefs, to try to use them to get a false sense of security. That is anti-spiritual and you’re supposed to be pro-spiritual. You’re compulsive in exploiting other people.
You heard the words and it stopped right there in your mind and didn’t go beyond it. I know that. You don’t know that, and I’m going to prove it to you.
I said, you must not enter another person’s world but stay strong, alert and aware and upright and innocent whenever you meet anyone in the supermarket or anywhere else. You must remain strong and not be petty and not selfishly use other people.
It went into your mind and it stopped there and you think that you understood what I said. And you haven’t the slightest notion of what I said. You merely have the words without the music. I will prove it to you. There’s going to be a Monday and a Tuesday and you’re going to do it again and again. And pour out all your griefs, your own troubles.
Now, that means that you’ve got an awful lot of work to do. And that work consists of taking the information, the facts you’ve been given and letting them go beyond your mind, beyond your intellect.
Be a true spiritual warrior, man or woman. Side with the part that says, “I’m going to study from now on. I’m going to practice. I’m going to do the supermarket exercise.”
All this is for the sake of something that exists that is pure and marvelous and good for you that you don’t know exists yet.
STOP SEEKING COMFORT
Listen and obey this spiritual instruction: you must never again ask for comfort, sympathy from anyone. You have the habit of seeking comfort when something goes wrong, when disappointed in love, finances, whatever. You give comfort to yourself if no one will. For example, blabbing your problems, food. All comforters are miserable comforters. It changes nothing.
Truth is about changing your nature, uplifting it. By that standard alone, you should never want sympathy.
There is a state that has nothing to do with that. You can’t afford to continue with your dilatory spiritual practices anymore. You have to get busy! Your energies are so wasted and you don’t know it. You have to stop remaining a victim of dark forces.
The quality of your thought and feelings is extremely low. That is draining you. Who you really are has no need of, doesn’t want a word of comfort, sympathy, or consolation from anything or anyone. It doesn’t need it. Only the false needs the false. The true doesn’t need the false.
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“I just read ‘The Witness Self’ in the newest newsletter (Spring 2018) and it’s done a lot for my journey as I’m piecing it all together. Thank you for keeping these teachings alive!”
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