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Vernon Howard Founder
“It is wise to seek immortality for time defeats all other ambitions.”
“What you want also wants you. If you seek the celestial, the celestial also seeks you. There are no unanswered requests in the universe. If we do not like what we are receiving, we can learn to ask for something different.”
STOP LOVING YOU
Above all else, all human beings love being what they presently are. This is staggering so don’t let it get by. Connect this with your life, with your stress and your anxiety and you will begin to see, little by little, the solution.
A human being loves his present nature whatever it is. As miserable as it is, he loves it and he clings to it. And you try to change him and watch how he fights. Evidence is right in front of your eyes that we love, to our own destruction, having the kind of thoughts we presently think, having the kind of feelings that presently surge through us, wrong as they may be. Having the actions and having the catastrophes — this is what is loved most of all simply because most people will not make the smallest effort to see that this kind of a stress and strained life is unnecessary. They take the present ways, the present pains, the present conflicts and the present sufferings as being fixed, as being right for them, as being necessary because they say, “This is what I have, and this is what I must continue to have.”
Talk about seeking! We had better talk about non-seeking, about people who do not want to make any effort to get out of their condition, to walk out of the desert. And these are the facts: loving their pain so much that when someone comes along — when truth itself comes along and says, “Sir, Miss, things can be different for you if you do certain things. For example, if you will listen to something other than your own past mind, your own past thoughts. If you will begin to listen to something different from what you usually listen to, things can change.”
You want to do it? Listen to these strange facts. Now you will understand why most human beings remain as they are. Take a criminal. Sir, if you commit a crime, if you hurt somebody, there are certain punishments that society will give you. You will go to jail, you will be fined and all the other problems that go with being caught in committing a crime. You tell him this and do you know what he does? He goes right out and commits the next crime. And you tell him that again after he has got caught the second or third time; you tell him that if you continue to do this, you will suffer the consequences. You will lose your physical freedom. And he goes out and he does it again and again.
Isn’t that a strange situation? No, it is not strange at all if you understand thoroughly what we are talking about, which is that the strongest love of all is self-love, the love of repetitious behavior, the love of being what you presently are.
To sum up: Above all loves is self-love.
WANT SOMETHING REAL
The way we are now thinking and living is now harming us. A lost soul who is apart from God has only one thing — his/her past experiences.
Examine your reactions throughout this lesson. When you’re apart from Reality you’re always desperate. You can’t find yourself in memory. Never ever feel sorry for anyone the way you are now. Everyone has made his decision — alcoholics, etc. There is only one way. Don’t fear to see the horror of the human condition, especially of yourself.
You can’t find what your heart wants in the region of the earth. Stop seeking. When there is no hope for you, you accept the state that there is no longer anything for you to do. That’s the answer. Then the hoper will collapse. There is no one there anymore.
Do not be afraid when told you can’t do anything to save yourself. It’s a lying, threatening voice.
Send up a request to heaven. Know you haven’t the slightest notion of how to get out. Say, “I want something real to live for.” Stop there. Look up! Keep looking up.
WHY YOU DON’T GET OUT
If you continue to live with suppressed angers, with concealed jealousies, if you continue to live with chaos inside your mind and in your feelings and in your life, if you continue to live with these hidden harms, then you will have to be an unhappy human being.
There. Now I’ve told you. If you continue to be the way you are, if you continue to make the past the future in your life, with chaos inside your mind and your feelings and in your life, then you’ll have to be an unhappy human being.
If you continue to be the way you are, then you also have to repeat the strain and the stress and the anxiety and the nervousness and the uncertainty and the pain.
Now I’ve told you, right? Now I will ask you, what are you going to do with what I’ve told you?
Now we come to the question: Which do you love more? Do you love the truth, the beautiful truth that you have just heard, the truth of deliverance that if you do face yourself you can change everything and be free of your old nature? Do you love the truth that you just heard or do you love more the way you have always been and fear to leave it?
There it is. And I for now leave that question with you for you to think about later on. You have been told there is another way — you can free yourself.
What do you love? You have to do something that is utterly new for you. And thinking about the way out and trusting your memorized experiences — you have to utterly abandon it. Think of something else.
The man in the story called for rescue. You call for rescue from your own self, your own unworkable ways. When will you give up? I will tell you if you will give up, something else that is not you, that is not a part of the thirty, forty, fifty years’ old inscriptions in your mind, something else will come to you.
In the story the man had to cease to believe in what he believed in, and he had to consider that hopeless. What you call hopeful is hopeless and always has been and you are afraid to face it. And that’s why you don’t get out. You will continue feeling/being trapped unless you try to understand what you are doing against yourself by consulting your own self-centeredness, your own self-love endlessly, and thinking it is going to change something. If it could have it would have. And it has changed nothing.
NOTHING IS MORE STUPID THAN TO SUFFER
Nothing is more stupid than to suffer. Take that one thought and put it where you will see it a dozen times a day for months and months and years. And something will click inside you and all the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle of your life would begin to come together. Nothing is dumber than to live in pain. Now you are understanding, “Oh, there’s something wrong with me.”
NOTHING IS AGAINST YOU
This is you, three words only. And watch how familiar this is to you. Your bewildered, despairing statement and question is, “What’s the use?” You have said that over and over in school, “What’s the use of trying? I just can’t get that lesson. What’s the use of trying to get a little bit ahead? Always keeping up with the crowd. What’s the use? No matter which way I turn, the odds seem a million to one against me.”
Now I am going to tell you something about that right now. You are going to destroy this false assumption that you have. There is not one single odd against you, say nothing less than a million or a billion. Not a single thing in reality is against you. You have put it there. And you’ve put it there because of your false love for “If I can’t be a winner, then I can have a self who’s at least a loser. And all sorts of bad little things can revolve around that. I can excuse criminal behavior. I can excuse being rude to people. I can excuse everything because I am a loser. I don’t want to be! I wanted to win. I wanted to be a good man, but I couldn’t be a good man. There are too many people against me.”
All that is a part of the unconscious kingdom of evil. As it is allowed by you, individually — only you can do it and you must do it. As that phonograph record that has been playing in the cellar of your mind is allowed to come up, as you allow it to rise inside you — come up the stairs and through the door of the cellar — you suddenly know that that’s been your attitude. “What’s the use carrying on? I’ll never win. Why don’t I just give up?”
Your little trick of discouragement, of feeling morose, that is your trick in which you tell yourself that this is how I win.
See, you want to win a person there you can always talk about. You really don’t care the way you can love and hate yourself as long as there is a self there to do either one — or both. That’s why it is a pernicious pleasure for you to start crying, to get rageful and filled with vengeance towards your enemies because now you weren’t elected. You lost the election. You didn’t get the boyfriend. Someone else got the boyfriend. You didn’t make it after going to college. You didn’t make it commercially out in the world.
See, why you wanted success and recognition in the first place was to try to pretend that you were a successful person. You can’t pretend that you’re successful because it’s not out there.
All right. This can be your experience. You can know who you are if you find out who you are not and are willing to give up your simple delusion of being this or that. Now you’re an awake human being going through that door — the only one in the whole city of a million people who can walk through a door consciously, who can walk — this is right — walk through a door with God.
You were one of them. Now you’re not one of them. They are all rushing nowhere and not one of them knows it. You understand everything. You understand that because you’re not a part of this world. All the time, you’re living from a higher world. A higher world in which there can be no pain because all the pain is below. All the pain is in the unconscious regions.
You’re now awake, and your big aim in life, your marvelous really pleasurable aim in life is tomorrow to see even more — and you will.
Now you go out of here with that determination. Cast away everything that gives you false pleasure, and you will know what authentic pleasure is.
DARKNESS CAN’T STAND LIGHT
You have to stop remaining a victim of dark forces. Say to the witches (malicious forces) inside, “Away with you! I don’t want you. I don’t need you. You have been flying around in the darkness of the night of my unconscious long enough!”
All you have to do: Put the flashlight on them. You don’t have to create the light, you have to receive it and direct it towards them. Darkness can’t stand light. So, you’re becoming a self-aware human being, and you deliberately do not feed the neurosis hanging around in the darkness inside.
Don’t feed the animals. Don’t give egotistical attention to the self. Say, “I am going to bear my loneliness, my defeat and see what happens.” Something good will happen. Defy the lie that something bad will happen. Where are you seeking comfort in order to hang on to your idea of being good? The need for comfort, sympathy is arrogance.
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